I've been riding the hypomania train for a long, long while now. Months. How do I identify this? Here's how it goes:
- I have energy. I could exercise, I can get things done during the week evenings. If we need lemons I can go to the store and get them. I'm actually compelled to get tasks done.
- Creativity gave birth to the Great Scrapbook Age. Feverishly working on a creative project from beginning to end (which usually doesn't get finished) just shows I'm in a place where my mind is everywhere giving me the ability to hyper-focus on a project and get it done.
- Spending. I aired all my secrets, I couldn't handle the toxicity of lying or omitting purchases I made to my boyfriend anymore. I just told him everything. I've spent a tremendous amount. It's a shame because I could have used it on a bigger purchase but we're getting it under control now that I'm really working WITH him as opposed to hiding.
- Keeping up with chores. It seems so small but it's so big. Even if I couldn't get out of the house, I CAN get things done around the house.
- I'm social. Despite the Bipolar, GAD and social anxiety, I can see people and not feel like sleeping as soon as I get home. I'm actually antsy on the weekends if we have nothing planned because I need something to drain my energy.
But it's been MONTHS. How long can this last? I've never had it last this long, ever. A week tops. I'm not sure if this is supposed to be my level, my normal. If so, then I have some nasty habits that need constant attention. We tried swapping a medication to see if it would help but the old stuff might not be out of my system yet so I don't know what the next few months hold. Hopefully a leveling out. Control the bad habits and keep the energy enough to be a normal adult.
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