I had lunch with a friend over the weekend and he said something that really stuck. Since he understands my struggle with bipolar he asked how I was doing and I gave the typical meh answer because I'm still not at perfect. Stable-ish, my boats only have small holes but my head is over water.
But then he something to the effect of, "...but look at you since 5 years ago..." and I back stored that for something to write on because there is so much that has happened since then. It took 5 years to get me basically where I dreamed of being all throughout college and in high school.
Memory doesn't serve me well but I will try to recount the changes. Looking back I wish I had stuck to my journaling so I could tell when exact;y pivot points happened but from what I can compile from the internet and memory is the following.
2011
I was going to Oakland University full time. Back at home.
In June for 2011 I went on an archaeological expedition in Israel. Probably one my life pivoting points. It was physically taxing but I showed myself I could climb the side of an ancient excavation site to the top rocks and throw my arms out to the wind on the edge.
In December I graduated with my Bachelor's in Anthropology with a concentration in Archaeology.
2012
I went back to school to get an associate's in Software Engineering. Back at home.
Loved hard.
2013
And lost hard. Dark times.
I started treatment right away. Therapy and pdoc appointments every other week. It was rough but having gone untreated for so long was worse. I finally had a voice and people were listening. I started meds and we played around until I started to feel human again.
Mid year I met my current boyfriend. We hit it off right away.
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2014
Beginning of the year I have no idea, my phone calendar doesn't go back much further.
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<3 at="" between.="" don="" even="" felt="" had="" happen="" have="" how="" i="" in="" it="" life="" like="" line="" looking="" love="" much="" my="" p="" possible="" quickly="" so="" t="" the="" time="" to="" understand="" was="" what="" with="" years="">Fought Boyfriend tooth and nail to get away but he managed to convince me for the first year it was going to work.
November I got my tattoo covered up and refreshed to mean more to my current life state.
December I FINISH MY ASSOCIATE'S DEGREE in Software Engineering (I don't know how to code, how did that happen?)
2015
February Boyfriend and I moved in together into a small modest house. It look a long time to find and we were up against others but got chosen for the lease.
I switched my pdoc and dropped therapy for maintenance but I guess I wasn't at the right cocktail yet because I'm still with my pdoc, adjusting my meds to current time.
June 10th 2015 we got our 6 week old kittens. Zelda and Booties. I'd like to think I'm a good mama but they were just so darned little and adorable and I loved them so much. I also had some pretty back medical issues around this time but the babies were a comfort.
I remember throwing up at Ren Fest for the very first time. Not one of my best moments.
Big events were going to GenCon in August and Texas to visit my best friend in October. Also my first work conference out of state.
2016....
January: Happy new year! Scrapped my knees like the dickens and laughed about it. It was a good month. Houses.
February: Happy 3rd V-day Boyfriend! We went to see Kizumonogatari part 1 in theaters. Houses?
March: Work work work. Best friend gets older. Houses.
April: Cool adult stuff happens with work but not much to remember. House hunting still.
May: Not much happening to my memory, just looking for houses.
June: Boyfriend becomes an old man batting up to 29. Ready for your mid life crisis? Well that doesn't happened until you're 40 now. Many others I love get a year older. House hunting ensues.
July: The long road of looking for houses and just never finding one that had the needs with some wants anywhere near our price range. SGDQ 2016 happens.
August: A lot of good things happened in August. Some things I can't talk about but GenCon happened! And it was great and I loved every minute of it. But mainly we found the "one" house! Somewhat in our price range. I can't believe I am going to be a human being that "owns" a house/ The biggest investment of my life and all I can think about is what furniture we will need and where to hang all the art. Oh and I finally got my silver hair. Oh oh, and Boyfriend and I are together for 3 years.
September: Seemingly taking forever to come. We are going to be closing on our very first house. I'm so scared and excited at the same time.
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