Monday, May 30, 2016

My hair obsession, getting through sticking to one chemical change for months but having practically any color I want (explained)

WARNING: picture formatting is too hard with blogger for some reason so I don't care. Let them be free. The reading kind of goes with the picture clumps.

So over the past decade I have abused my hair. Well actually go back in time....

August 2003
April 2007
Sept 2009
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June 2008
It's some where between 6th and 8th grade (no picture). I begged my mom let me to try the crazy colors my old brothers were doing. To stave me off she agreed to let me get highlights. I pushed the envelope and got platinum blonde. I stuck with that until high school.

High school was my experimental ground. I had almost every color; green, red, orange, pink, yellowish...I rebelled, and dyed my hair a very rich color green (see above). Of course to get this vivid color I had stripped my hair beforehand by myself. I was referred affectionately as "green" in my intermediate science classes (partly because my best friend at the time have blue hair and her nickname was 'Blue.)" Eventually I branched out and tried other colors, always stripping my hair when needed. Sometimes I stuck with a color for months because it would fade in a week and I just had to keep reapplying

Nov 2010

Jan 2011

Feb 2011
Eventually I started making my own money and I upgraded. I had a hair dresser do the coloring. I got afraid all my hair would fall out, I'd done so much damage. I feel in love. In comes Carrie. She has always understood what I've wanted and given me what I want to the extent that was possible.





After high school I started doing "natural" colors. I wanted fire engine red but we could never get it there so I started seeking a red headed copper. For the "longest" time I have a red variation hair color. We also did red-black two toned just to put some variety in. Then I just decided one day, black. I can't remember when life event, coming or going of a boyfriend or what but I went black. There was my first real mistake. I should have never gone black. It's so hard to lift. Eventually though, I went back to red. I don't know why. And again, I went black. I don't know what I was thinking. My hair was invincible? Somehow I went back to red though. And then I met my boyfriend. And I started a new job (bottom right with hat).



May 2013

March 2012
July 2012





















Trigger the rainbow era. It started with purple. I had been working at my new job for a several months, I had been with my boyfriend for a few months and I was red for a "long" time and I was itching for a change. I went purple, which faded to pastel. Then I went two-toned blue. A Mermaid blue. But it wasn't enough. I went mermaid unicorn. Purple, blue, magenta all professionally mixed and paid for only to last a month before I would have to shell out a million dollars again.

April 2013
May 2013
June (12) 2013
June 2013
May 2015
May 2015

May 2015
June 2015




















I got poor. So I went black...almost. I went black with a streak of blonde. It was like nothing I'd tried before. Just a little something to mix it up. It was cheap to maintain, just touch up the blonde spot roots. Presto. I stuck with this hair for a LONG time. I'm talking over six months (almost a year now!).

August 2015
Then I finally decided, it was time. I wasn't going to wait anymore. I want to go grey.

White/grey (which are distinctively different) have both always been on my hair color bucket list. The trouble is, I've got a lot of black. Previously we only needed to lift enough to go red, which was still hiding under the first time I went black. It was harsh but doable. Now that's it's been almost a year, I've been begging my hair dresser to let me know when I could go grey. I finally announced I didn't want to wait and she agreed....to a time line.

So what is a girl to do in the mean time? We I started getting into cheap extensions. Cheap COLORED extensions. So I put color and length in the back of my hair but it looks weird with a streak of blonde in the front. In comes HAIR CHALK.

Feb 2016
March 2016

I never wanted to lose the blonde and I didn't want to commit to a color for my streak so I tried hair chalk, the most casual and temporary of hair coloring. At first I was nervous. I was putting a two-toned blue on my streak. I was sure it was going to stain. It was EVERYWHERE. My hair, my scalp, my forehead, my ears. But I covered it all up and you know what? It looked good. I love surprising my coworkers so I didn't tell them it was going to wash out first shower I got. I left it in for 3 days. Then I washed it out. And it didn't stain!.I now knew of a brand that I could use that would not stain my blonde streak! I could do colors again! I went on a hair extension shopping spree. Pastel purple, red, two-toned blue, regular purple, green and yellow, wine red and magenta and hot pink! I had to get chalk to match. For the two-toned colors I would two-tone my streak.

Safe brands: Diggity do color pop (found at Ulta but is limited time)

Brands I have but have not tried yet: Hair-Chalk-Set-Temporary-Effects and Hot Huez

I haven't actually used all the colors yet, I got sick/tired & sick and tired of the work but I still throw it in on special occasions. All the while I wait for my transformation to grey to begin.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Hypomania hydroplane

So it's probably time for an update. Of course, never in a timely manner.

I've been riding the hypomania train for a long, long while now. Months. How do I identify this? Here's how it goes:


  • I have energy. I could exercise, I can get things done during the week evenings. If we need lemons I can go to the store and get them. I'm actually compelled to get tasks done.
  • Creativity gave birth to the Great Scrapbook Age. Feverishly working on a creative project from beginning to end (which usually doesn't get finished) just shows I'm in a place where my mind is everywhere giving me the ability to hyper-focus on a project and get it done.
  • Spending. I aired all my secrets, I couldn't handle the toxicity of lying or omitting purchases I made to my boyfriend anymore. I just told him everything. I've spent a tremendous amount. It's a shame because I could have used it on a bigger purchase but we're getting it under control now that I'm really working WITH him as opposed to hiding.
  • Keeping up with chores. It seems so small but it's so big. Even if I couldn't get out of the house, I CAN get things done around the house.
  • I'm social. Despite the Bipolar, GAD and social anxiety, I can see people and not feel like sleeping as soon as I get home. I'm actually antsy on the weekends if we have nothing planned because I need something to drain my energy.

But it's been MONTHS. How long can this last? I've never had it last this long, ever. A week tops. I'm not sure if this is supposed to be my level, my normal. If so, then I have some nasty habits that need constant attention. We tried swapping a medication to see if it would help but the old stuff might not be out of my system yet so I don't know what the next few months hold. Hopefully a leveling out. Control the bad habits and keep the energy enough to be a normal adult.