It's been a while since I've felt this way to this extreme so I'm not sure what to do with myself. I don't really have the attention span to stick to one thing too long (although I did marathon 4 seasons of Legend of Korra over the weekend). Watching things is easy because I get involved in the story and the characters but it's just a waste of time. When, instead I could be learning things or getting stuff done.
I don't really have much more to talk about because it's hard to keep my train of thought before jumping to the next thing.
I did plan a my very first adult trip to Austin next month from the 10th-17th. My boyfriend are flying out to stay with some really close friends. No big plans as of yet, I'm just excited to see my best friend. Then I turn around on the 18th to fly out for a conference for work in San Francisco! I'm a bit scared about that to be honest but I'm going to try to make the best of it. It's going to be really tiresome to go from plan ride to plane ride back to back. I 'll be out there until Thursday, so I'm debating taking a vacation day that Friday or just work from home. I'm going to be really drained I'm sure but this is just how the cookies crumbled. I'd been planning the Austin trip for a while and the conference didn't seem like it was going to happen even though I spoke to my team lead about it earlier in the year. I just hope I don't be a stick in the mud and can actually mingle and network.
Work has been insane. I've been assigned to a special project that takes me away from my normal work and team. I miss the social aspect of seeing my team but at the same time I'm excited to learn all this new stuff. Eventually I'll be coming back with all the info to teach the team. But for now I'm taking it day by day trying to learn as much as possible and hope that it all sinks in and I get everything documented so I don't get stuck again. My "mentor" on this project is not a hand holder and I think I've gotten a little bad about trying to figure things out on my own so it's a good chance to reestablish those problem solving skills.
Also I signed up for a watercolor class for Monday nights but now I'm not sure if I should cancel or not. They pushed the start date back a week (so there goes one class I paid for) and then I will be missing two classes for the Austin trip and the work conference. So I'm just not sure if it's bad timing or if I should just do it anyway. I think I'll go to the first class and decide then. I still have a little time to drop and get my money back. I was just really, really looking forward to learning that medium.
It's been really hard for me on the weekends to get motivated enough to do just about anything recently so this "manic" feeling only started Monday. Now, there is a chance it could be a side effect of my new ADD medication but the symptoms seem to fit mania better. Or perhaps the ADD med is putting me in a manic state. I'm not sure. I've only been taking the new med for a little over a week now. I also missed 3 days of meds over the weekend (I know a big nono) so I'm not sure how my body is adjusting.
I see my therapist on the 23rd, I don't feel like I have much to talk about or work on. I dunno. I see my psychiatrist on the 3rd so it will be a while until I can adjust my meds, if needed. Which probably will considering I'm rapid cycling right now (the weekend I didn't want to move).
Anyway that's what's been up lately.
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